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15 October 2009 @ 08:55 pm
My birthday was today. I was called by my best friend AJ, my sister called me, and my father apologized for not being able to get me a present. My mother admitted outright that she forgot today was my birthday. And while a lot of my online friends have wished me a happy birthday via internet, my day has been abnormally quiet. In all honesty, none of the people I expected to hear "Happy Birthday" from even let on that they remembered, so either they have one really REALLY big surprise planned for me they don't want to hint at, or I've been forgotten.

What can I say? Happy birthday to me.
 
 
Current Mood: lonely
 
 
varchildmarquee
09 October 2009 @ 04:29 am
Do they say something about me? Maybe. Do they say something about you? Probably...

My music playlist on YouTube... I apologize for the short length of the set. I will be adding more as time goes on.

Been up all night unable to sleep, unable to come up with any games for tomorrow and now it's almost dawn and I have to get up, get showered, and drive two hours to see people who are going to be PO'd at me and bored at guild.

Someone should have prepared for this better than they did. Sadly, no one did. I mean I had my s#!t together, for a normal week at the guild unfortunately. Now I have to make adjustments for untold hordes of people who are attending for another game that won't be run... :( I'm on the spot for everybody's enjoyment as usual.

 
 
Current Location: bed
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: HIM - "Gone with the Sin"
 
 
varchildmarquee
30 August 2009 @ 10:43 am
Meh...
 
 
varchildmarquee
23 August 2009 @ 09:43 am
Meh...
 
 
varchildmarquee
25 June 2009 @ 10:21 pm
10:20 PM and I have not packed for my trip. I'll be driving to north Houston, the Double Tree hotel by IAH... I'll be passing through Winnie on I-10 cause it's almost a straight shot to the convention from there. Go figure. I'm probably taking the wrong way to get there, I should most likely hit Clear Lake but I'll already be on I-10,m so why detour down to 45?

In other news, I saw that Michael Jackson passed today. He was a great musician, even if he was too wierd to relate to any longer. Between him, Farrah and McMahon, it makes 3... deaths always happen in threes... ever noticed, keep an eye out next time a celeb dies... *shrugs* maybe its just my imagination.

Anyway, I need to go... I have a job and have to get sleep now... later
 
 
Current Mood: sleepy
 
 
varchildmarquee
08 February 2009 @ 02:56 am

The [info]sfandf_writers  community recently had this article make the rounds, and a healthy discussion regarding it arose. Time: Modern Book Publishing and Book Culture

Basically the article is a discussion of how some authors are turning to self-publishing as a means of getting their feet wet, to great success, in the publishing industry. The article tends to be a bit contradictive, but it's Time, they're trying to be unbiased, or at least that's how I choose to view it. Personally, I'd like to see a professional fiction writer's view of the article's content, but I'm not friended by any professional fiction writers. No less important to me, however, are all my friend's views of the subject.

Those familiar with my inner turmoil know well that I have struggled with this dilemma repeatedly for years! Those unfamiliar with my inner turmoil, now you know. To POD or not to POD, that is the question.

I'm so frakking confused!
 
 
Current Location: lost
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: "Bent" - Goo Goo Dolls
 
 
varchildmarquee
23 January 2009 @ 02:56 pm


For those of you following things, I'm submitting a copy of my Sparrow in the Gutters Introduction to the convention Con-Jour 2009 for publication in the program if there's room.

You can find the actual story here: http://mfc2-tx.livejournal.com/955.html

Oh and feel free to add me. That's my professional journal. This is going to become my personal journal. Yeah, I know, the two will probably cross paths bunches...


:)

 
 
Current Location: My Writing Desk
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: "Bittersweet" - Apocalyptica
 
 
varchildmarquee
21 January 2009 @ 07:24 am

Welcome aboard [info]dyionisiac !
 
 
varchildmarquee
20 January 2009 @ 09:16 pm

[info]tygerr  and [info]bald_ruminant have both joined the [info]conjour_news  community. I am very happy about this because both of them are guests at this year's Con-Jour and will hopefully become long time fixtures of the convention. I think it's time I start announcing things to the pulic on the conjour news community page also. I am very glad to see it growing. I hope it will continue to expand in size exponentially. :D
 
 
Current Mood: crazy
 
 
varchildmarquee
19 January 2009 @ 12:56 am

1. Three days, no members for the conjour_news community. Not even the staff. Beginning to think a blog community was a bad idea, as no one seems to like the idea but me, as evidenced in their quick response to my invitations to join.

EDIT: As of now, 1:30 AM January 19, 2009, there are three members: myself, [info]gryphoness , and [info]kittywitch86 . I didn't check my email until after leaving my blog entry and I had join requests waiting there for me. All of us are members of the Con Staff.

2. Con-Jour fast approaching. Will have crash space if I arrive early to help out with last minute details. If not, I have crash space if a certain someone renigs on their plans to vacate the hovel for Dallas.

3. Have had no time to type up the PCs for the LARP, or to edit the NPCs for the LARP. am looking forward to a day off when I can set up my laptop and plug them out. Left Flash drive at my aunt's house after trying to help her fix an error with her Microsoft Works word processor (only person on earth that still utilizes Works as their PRIMARY word processor program.). It has all my files on it, so I have to dare the sanity bending dangers of "the nut house" as I affectionally call it.

4. Clearing out house in Bolivar so our carpenter can get inside, tear out carpeting, clean up sheetrock, tape, float, and paint the whole house, and then have to completely move everything back where it came from, unless I somehow manage to convince myself to part with any of it. (You don't need this shit, get rid of it. *chants the new mantra*)

5. May have black mold in my lungs since finding it on one wall of the house where I've been cleaning. Tried not to inhale. Have been coughing for two days, blood sugar was out of whack yesterday morning. Since breakfast everything returned to normal levels, for me anyway.

6. Am ready for the con to be on top of us. If it wrere, the work would be over, except the management of the event. All the technical bullshit, however, would be out of the way and only the glitches and management would remain to be handled. Tired of the listing, and the talking, and the thinking. Want to get to the doing!

7. Going night night. *waves*
 
 
Current Mood: sleepy
 
 
varchildmarquee
17 January 2009 @ 02:45 am

I took the time today to actually set up a news community for Con-Jour, as it seems this year's convention is making it after all and we will likely do it again next year. That said, I felt we needed a better forum to provide informaiton to the masses as well as share information between our members, guests, and fans. The website is good, but it can only provide so much information, and only as fast as one person manages to compile it and get it to another person. This way, we can submit the information we have directly and edit/organize the material therein without playing phone/email/im tag.

If you're a guest, fan, attendee, volunteer, game master, or member of staff for Con-Jour, you'll want to watch or friend the [info]conjour_news  community. http://community.livejournal.com/conjour_news

See you there!
 
 
Current Location: ConJour's News Community
Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: "Skellig" - Loreena McKennitt
 
 
varchildmarquee
07 January 2009 @ 10:30 pm


Well a friend posted a kinky haiku poem, and it inspired me to give it a shot. I may not have gotten as kinky as others she knows did, but I had to go for it. I think I may have stalled out at erotic. I'll let you all judge.


Bittersweet

Orchid in coral
heavy, fragrant, with nectar--
licking flames and reeds.

 
 
Current Location: in -spiration
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: "(Don't Fear) the Reaper" - Blue Oyster Cult
 
 
varchildmarquee
07 January 2009 @ 03:04 pm
Well okay, I didn't mean to do that, but I had my breakdown and now I'm over it and back to normal, as far as normal for me is concerned.

*sigh* Bitching... )

Me. Egocentric... definitely. Asshole... definitely. Honest... brutally. Inconsiderate... you betcha!

Will I ever grow up?

April is the cruelist month.
A child of five would understand this. Send someone to fetch a child of five.
All grown ups are pirates...
A little nonsense now and then is relished by the wisest...
If one whole person believes in you, deep enough and strong enough believes in you...
I do believe in Faeries! I do! I do!
Man dies like a butterfly. Life burns at the touch of the reaper. All things must pass.
Seasons don't fear the reaper. Nor do the wind, the sun, or the rain...
Some men just want to see the world burn.
How about a little fire, Scarecrow?
Flame on!
I don't know why I did it, I don't know why I enjoyed it, and I don't know why I'll do it again.
I am not young enough to know everything.
Alright! You sir, how about a shave?
Did I hear you say that this is victory?
You're a crook, a cheat and a swindler! Take a little boys' hopes and dash them to pieces. You're an inhuman monster!
Probably.
I want you bleeders.
Be vewy quiet! I'm hunting wabbits!
Eh, what's up, Doc?
I told the witch doctor I was in love with you.
She held me spellbound in the night, dancing shadows and firelight...
Nitwit, Blubber, Oddment, Tweak. Thank you.
You see, sir, a man infatuate with love, Her ardent and eager slave.
We've come for your daughter, Chuck.
What are you?
I am the terror that flaps in the night!
Your entrance was good. His was better.
You've been to Saturn? I've been to Saturn. Whoah! Sandworms!
I'm going to crush you like a worm.
And the reign will kill us all, we throw ourselves againt the wall...
I'm the king of the world!
...and to me what is this quintessence of dust...
Come and visit your good friend Sweeney.
You sir, too, sir? Welcome to the grave.
To die would be an awefully big adventure.
But no one else can see the preservation of the martyr in me.
I just want to be dead like you...
No, no, no, Lydia...
Lydia! Oh Lydia! Oh, have you seen Lydia? Lydia the tattooed lady.
I'm melting! Melting! Oh, what a world...
It's Megamaid. She's gone from suck to blow!
It's good to be the king.
One love is a crooked lie. The world lies in the hands of evil. We pray it will last.
I only have one question, does it come in black?
I have this feeling that my luck is none too good, this sword here at my side don't act the way it should...
Demons will charm you with a smile, for a while but in time...
Whoso pulleth out the sword from this stone...
Hail King Arthur! Long live the king!
To live will be an awefully big adventure.
Didn't you get the memo?
Oh shit! There goes the planet.
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
 
 
Current Location: the state of instability
Current Mood: distressed
Current Music: "
 
 
varchildmarquee
06 January 2009 @ 01:01 am
Cut added to protect the innocent. You've been warned. )
 
 
Current Location: hell
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: "Angry Again" - Megadeth
 
 
varchildmarquee
Sparrows in the Gutters: A Gaslight Fantasy LARP

Dramatis Personae:
Takhivatya, Queen of Frost and Flurry, a seelie fae (tentatively cast, may be recast)
Udohima, Marquis of Sedgel, a half-fae unseelie lord (played by[info]nedako)
Foxx, a respected leader among the beasts (played by[info]nedako's girlfriend)
Havens, a foppish explorer from Brastonburg (played by[info]tygerr)
Estingallows Magistrate of Arculum, a human magi-lord (not yet cast)
Himazalaph, the Ravager in Winter, Takhivatya's disowned half-fae/half-beast brother (not yet cast)

Assistant Directors: The assistant directors play the Dramatis Personae. I need two more minimum, three optimally. Each persona represent a different caste or culture of the world. Takhivatya represents pure fae, Udohima represents mortal half-faes, Foxx represents beasts, Havens represents progressive humans, Estingallows represents archaic humans, Himazalaph represents outsiders. NOTE: NPC Conflicts introduced during the audition should not dominate the game. A few glitches were introduced during  the auditions which while enjoyable, create meta-game conflicts which will disrupt the flow of the LARP. I am including a correction, which I ask the local Assistant Directors able to access this information to share with those who cannot.

Players: The players will be divided between the assistant directors, who will facilitate conflict resolution. Players are responsible for naming their characters. Players will choose a character randomly from the Assistant Director they wish to play alongside. Costumes should fit with the type of character being played. Beasts should look Furry or Bestial, pure fae should look Fantastic, progressive humans should look Steamy, archaic humans should look Arcane or Renny. half-fae should look like a fusion of Arcane or Renny or Steamy and Fantastic, outsiders... Well, outsiders look like Outsiders!


Plot:
Here's the skinny... and the corrections. Our auditions got out of hand.

The Queen of the Winter Court is dying. She's resigned to this fact and is planning to name a successor. Dignitaries and nobles from all around are gathering to offer support and to curry favor in the hopes of gaining the title.

Estingallows has kidnapped and lost the woman he loves at the same time, not that she would have loved him after kidnapping her anyway. He can say nothing of losing her, as it will implicate him as her kidnapper. Likewise, he has noticed her father is acting suspicious, but can't understand why. Still he knows the man has said nothing of her disappearance and yet he obviously knows that she's gone.

Udohima had kidnapped the victim of Estingallows' affection, but has also lost her. He is using her absense to control her father, as her father is likely the only person that can heal the Queen of the Winter Court, and that is the last thing Udohima wants. He is the one poisoning her, so healing her would defeat all his efforts to gain her throne.

Himazalaph had taken the girl in question and was romancing her in his den, but she has been rescued from his clutches. He is hunting her and her wouldbe heroes, and has turned to disguise and cunning to gain access to likely places he'll find them. His takes over the course of years provided him plenty of things to disguise himself with, of course none of it really goes together. Half-Fae, half-beast, disguised to fit into proper society, You have to wonder what that would look like.

Meanwhile, Havens and Foxx have rescued the girl from Himazalaph's clutches, after Havens was convinced by Foxx to look into the attack in the forest. The girl has convinced them to disguise her, having told them of her three separate experiences with kidnappers.

And that's the skinny on the events so far...


Mechanics: I tried out a mechanic I was considering at the auditions, but I think I'm going to tweak it a bit. It didn't work out the way I hoped.

Stats remain unchanged: Control, Influence, Thought, and Quick.
Control is physical strength and stamina.
Influence is manipulation, charms, and negotiations.
Thought is accuracy, reflexes, and mental accuity.
Quick is the flow of life.

Power beads will still be used. I may adjust the numbers however.
Quick coins will still be used. I will be altering the numbers for this, as well as the way damage is dealt.


Cards will stil be used as the randomizer, but the decks will be adjusted.
Defenders will still choose how many cards get burned on a check.

Only part of a deck will be used. Ace (worth 1) through 10 of two suits (red & black), one joker (worth 11), and two Jacks (red & black, worth 0 but causing special effects).
The Two Jacks: The Red Jack is a positive thing. If the Red Jack is drawn in a contest, double the value of the highest card. If drawn while healing, treat it as a duplicate of the highest card (including the Joker). The Black Jack is a negative thing. If the Black Jack is drawn in a contest, ignore the highest card (except for the Joker). If drawn while healing, treat it as a zero, and treat the highest card drawn as a zero also.
The Joker: If you draw the joker, draw an extra card and add it to the total on top of the Joker's value of 11.

Example of conflict resolution (and combat):
Foxx tries to bite Havens.
Havens is the defender, so Havens chooses how many cards will be burned in the attempt.
Havens declares 6 cards will be burned.
(NOTE: The defender may declare only as many cards to burn as the stat with which he defends.)
Attacker and Defender both draw 6 cards. (This is called "Meeting the Challenge.")
Attacker and Defender reveal their cards, and declare the sum.
The higher total wins. (No stat adjustment as in the audition.)
(NOTE: If you ever draw all your cards and cannot "meet the challenge," you forfeit the action, automatically failing, and must reshuffle your entire deck.)

Now, let's say Foxx wins the attack.
Damage is done according to the attack.
Foxx's bite is based on Control +2, and the damage is Aggrivated.
(Not really, but) Foxx has a Control of 5, so the bite does 7 Agg damage.
(Damage is soaked by Quick, so you always reduce the damage by the Quick of the defender.)
(Again, just as an example,) Havens has 8 Quick, which is greater than the amount of damage dealt by 1.
7 - 8 + -1.
You would think Havens would take no damage. ANY successful attack deals a minimum of 1 point of damage.
Havens is fortunate however, because the total damage was soaked, he doesn't take Agg damage.
Had his Quick been 5 he would have taken 2 Agg damage, which can only be healed by magic or medicine.

Let's try another example, using a power bead.
Foxx shakes her furr and releases a cloud of polen into Estingallow's face, temporarily disorienting him.
Foxx hands over her green power bead.
Estingallows delcares 9 (using quick thinking to realize the danger and hold his breath).
They both draw 9 cards. Estingallows fails the draw.
Green power beads are based on Control, and Foxx has a 5 for Control (sticking with the last example's stat).
In this example, the Green power was being used to disorient. Disorientation affects attacks but not defenses.
Estingallows must succeed at a single card test vs. Foxx's Control or Estingallows forfeits his defense.
Worse, the disorientation continues until Estingallows does beat it.

Healing was an issue at the audition. There were questions about how it worked, and how to use it. Here's the thing, I was testing the mechanics and I didn't wuite know myself. I've since come to some decisions regarding healing. Using the power beads, either Blue bead (ice or water), healing powers can be activated.

Once activated:

Straight healing works as follows:
A number of cards are drawn at one time based on the Healer's Quick (unless another stat is used).
Each card higher than a 4 (four) restores 1 (one) Quick coin to the target.

Health Transfer works as follows:
The Healer gives his target any number of his own Quick coins.

Overhealing (healing when none is needed) works as follows:
The Healer draws a number of cards equal to his Quick at once.
For each card higher than the target's present Quick coin total, that target gains 1 (one) Quick coin.

Overhealing is very much an exercise in "diminishing returns."

Other uses of healing (the bad use), Draining:
The attacker declares his attack, the Defender may only burn as many cards as he has Quick.
Higher total wins.
Damage is Based on Quick, but the reward is the Attacker gains 1 Quick coin for each damage dealt.

Willing Draining:
(See Health Transfer, then reverse the flow of health from target to Healer instead of Healer to target.)


Death Glamour: The smoky/black bead...
I couldn't explain very well how this worked during the auditions, and the description on the character write up didn't go into much detail on the effect it would have on non-fae. It functions like any other power bead being used as an attack, and damages like any other power bead being used as an attack. However, it deals +2 damage, Aggrivated. The power is based off of Influence.



I'll post more later.

 
 
Current Location: Arculum
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: "Bittersweet" - Apocalyptica
 
 
varchildmarquee
24 December 2008 @ 10:37 pm
I started wearing my medicine pouch again. I haven't worn it in over five years. I took some time while I was in Bolivar last to adjust its ocntents to make things work better for me.I too out everything it had in it, an amethyst, a braided lock of hair from an ex-girlfriend (AngelKisses, whom none of you have ever heard about or know anything about, and that's fine---she came from long before I met any of you.), and a claw once left behind by my cat (Stubbers). Once these artifacts wre removed I took a quick assessment of my surroundings and keyed in on a few things I felt I needed. I put these things back into my medicine pouch: the claw from my cat, the amethyst, a piece of hematite, a piece of tiger's eye, and a quartz talisman.

I wore it home and felt better for the next 24 hours. Since then I have felt miserable. Maybe I have too much energy interacting to be any use to me. Or maybe I have the wrong energies in flux. I don't know. I tried to put in something to ground me (hematite), something to increae my creativity (tiger's eye), something to improve my health (amethyst), something to focus my concentration (quartz) and something to link me to my cat (it's claw).

Yesterday I added two more items to the pouch, fortune cookie fortunes. Two of them. The first says, "Creative energy is up--capitalize on it." The second says, "Compromise is always wrong if it means sacrificing a principle."

In any case, it's causing me conflict I think. To capitalize on my creativity, I've considered self-publishing again. But to do so would be to compomise my principles. That said, you can see how I'm having difficulty with this situation. In any case, it's a holiday, and I'm taking it off.


MERRY CHRISTMAS

Or HAPPY WHATEVER you want to celebrate. Keep in touch in the new year. I don't know if I'll get to post again before then.


Sincerely,
Varchild Marquee
 
 
Current Mood: conflicted
Current Music: "Twelve Days" - Straight No Chaser
 
 
varchildmarquee
18 December 2008 @ 05:01 pm
I just wanted to share the following thoughts, I find them all very worthy of being considered sexy, you can add to the list or comment as you like. I just wanted to share them. This is not a meme, just something I wanted to do. Thought it might relax me.


the warmth of a lover's sigh brushing your neck
rain falling against the window
the smell of cinnamon and cocoa
a satin sheet
the touch of a feather along the length of your spine
a gentle kiss
embracing someone from behind
the feel of a curtain of hair across your chest
the feel of fingers combing through your hair
the softness of a sweater between warm bodies
the curve of a friendly smile
the darkness of the edge where eyelashes meet eyelid
the softness of a palm gently cupping your cheek
a cold breeze drafting under a lover's blouse
a hint of perfume behind a lover's ear
a knowing smile hidden by a seductive dismissal
an ice pick
a satin or silken scarf draped off the foot of a bed
a spatter of crimson on a white tile floor
the smell of struck matches and the glow of a gas lamp
the tender brush of a lover's hand across the small of my back
the slow release of a torn letter into the crackling of a fire
the smooth glide fo a snake across a bed of leaves
the silent stare of a cat, large or small
the warm cushion of fur under my cheek and hands
the slicing of a blade through skin
the hot musk rising from the sheets of a bed after a night of lust and passion
the curve of skin-tight fabric on a statuesque woman
the heaving lift of a tightened corset
the taste of sweat on a lover's skin
the pumping swell of flesh over the vein in your wrist
the scent of oranges clinging to your hair
the moan of a woman at my fingers brushing circles around her navel
that dirty feeling clinging to your skin the morning after
the film of water spraying from a shower head to wash it all away
a soft robe
a warm pair of slippers
a warm comforter
the warmth of a bowl of tomato soup
that other world I see when I close my eyes

the dream-stuff that makes it all worth waking up and moving on for
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Current Location: In dreams
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: "Behind Blue Eyes" - The Who
 
 
varchildmarquee
18 December 2008 @ 03:58 pm
So I've been working my tail off getting things set up for the convention. It's hard making everybody happy, especially when its such an important event as this. Con-Jour is a foundling Con, in it's first year. This is the make or break year and it already has numerous things counted against it.

First, the con had to be scheduled in accordance with the college's room availability so we could make certain we had all our MAJOR rooms. Got that, but it put us in direct competition with the ancient and established OwlCon which falls on the following weekend. Can't help that. It's not like we're trying to steal their thunder. We just wanted to get our con off the ground and these were the dates our school could accommodate us.

Second, the webpage was a bitch to get up and running properly. We didn't get a webpage until about a month before Huricane Ike hit. Then Ike killed the power to the server. Then we got the server back online and a week later it crashed and we lost all of the site's information completely. I spend last month getting all the information accurate, pretty, and to our webmaster who in turn posted it all in a beautiful webpage format that works beautifully. She's a wonder. Honestly. We couldn't have managed to rebuild it in this short an amount of time wihtout her willingness to dive in and get dirty. She's sick now, and a bit fatigued, so I try not to send her too much to do too often, but I am still trying to keep the page updated as fast and real-time as possible for me. Go take a look if you want to see her work. She's great. http://Con-Jour.ndos.net

Tension release, if you're brave enough to read it, you should be stern enough to handle the opain without crying... Con-staff: DO NOT READ UNTIL AFTER THE CONVENTION )

Con-Jour is looking up! Definitely up!
 
 
Current Location: Con-Jour HQ
Current Mood: pissed
Current Music: "Everybody Hurts" - REM
 
 
varchildmarquee
12 December 2008 @ 08:26 am
Tonight at 8 PM at UHCL in the Student Services and Classroom Building (SSCB) first floor student lounge, the Convention Committee is meeting to discuss films, media room details, panel discussion planning, and other details of convention organization. I will be trying to attend via yahoo messenger, but I can't guarantee that I will be able to make it. The Con Committee is sharing space with the UHCL Gamers' Guild who are hosting the convention, so if you've got nothing to do, arrive early and play some games before the meeting starts, if you're interested.
 
 
Current Mood: calm
 
 
varchildmarquee
22 November 2008 @ 09:45 pm


I went to see Twilight with my 30 year old niece and her husband last night and I have to provide what I consider a very two-sided review. First I have to say, I have not read the novel, nor do I intend to read the novel. My niece however, has read the novel, and this will play a part later.
 

The dirt... No Spoilers I proimise... (Read the book for those!) )

4.5 out of 5 stars...


 
 
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: "Godzilla" - Blue Oyster Cult
 
 
 
 

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